As of last week, I am teaching at Prosper Dance Force. This is super exciting because I used to dance for the owner and now I am teaching for her.
It is really nice to be back. Aside from being a mom and a wife, dancing is my greatest joy. I have not been this happy in a long time, and it is truly making me a better mom. I feel like my life is a little more on track.
I have told Matt many times before that I have forgotten what makes me, "me". And before Matt and Hudson, I had dance. I ate, slept, and breathed dance from the minute I woke up until I fell asleep.
So it is so nice to look forward to teaching again. I missed the atmosphere, the space, movement, music... I missed what made me proud of myself. We should all be proud of our own self for something. I cannot lose my passion for dance just because I had a baby. The world didnt stop when Hudson was born, and neither should I.
Plus, shouldn't I show Hudson that I am passionate for things other than being a mom and a wife? I mean, how would he learn commitment and passion, if he did not learn it from me? I want him to be proud of me. To be proud of MY life away from being a mommy. I want him to see that I take so much pride in being a good teacher. My mom is passionate about her work, and that is where I must have learned it from. She is so confident and everyone trusts her. She makes a difference in patients' lives everyday. And I am proud of her for making something of herself. She can do anything, that woman! It really is amazing. I wish I had her stamina and her ability to put people in their place and make decisions without questioning. I hope to gain all of that with time.
So I am back! And I feel better than ever. My body feels better, I am more awake, I have tons of energy. And I am excited about this future. I am praying that I am the company director for competition season, come this fall. This is my shot... and I am going to take it. I am not just going to waste my life away. Because there will come a time when Hudson has his own life and his own family, and whatever children we have will do the same. And when they all leave, I hope I will still have dance.
Love,
J & H
